Alhamdulillah, tahniah on your safe delivery! Memang betul, lepas tengok muka baby tu semua sakit hilang rasa, kan? About the toilet issue, very normal la, a few of us had the same fear, but it actually helps with healing kalau boleh go normally, so jangan tahan sangat ya; minum banyak air and maybe ask the nurses for stool softener if needed. Rest well, take it easy with the stitches, and healing will come faster than you think, InsyaAllah!