Nak, ang heart ko talaga para sa'yo right now, you're doing SO much, and honestly, the fact na kaya mo pa ring breastfeed all three kids while carrying this financial stress shows how strong you really are, hindi ka lang nakikita mo yan. Your kids see it, your eldest especially, yung way na sinasabi niya 'don't think too much' shows they're learning resilience from you, and yung pagbebenta ng plants niya para tumulong? That's love, and that's the blessing you're talking about.
Mama, I won't sugarcoat, this season is HARD, but you're not failing, the circumstances are just unfair right now, at kaya yan ng pamilya ninyo together with your brother's help at God. One foot in front of the other lang, and hindi nakakasama na mag-stress counselor or check in with your OB about how you're feeling emotionally (postpartum stress is real and you deserve support). Your birthday wish for more faith and hope? You already have that kasi nandito ka pa, nag-eeffort pa, umaasa pa.