Sayang, I can hear this is a really heavy decision you're carrying at 36 weeks. Before anything else, please do talk to a counselor or social worker, maybe through your hospital or Jabatan Kebajikan Masyarakat, because they can guide you properly through the legal side and help you explore all your options, okay? What you're looking for sounds very thoughtful, and honestly, a few of my mum friends have gone through adoption journeys, it's such a loving thing to do for both the child and a family who's been waiting. But the process in Malaysia has proper channels (like registered adoption agencies and the courts) to make sure everything is done right for your baby. Please don't carry this alone, mama. Reach out to your doctor, a counselor, or even your local Jabatan Kebajikan, they won't judge you, and they'll help you find the right family if that's truly the path, plus make sure your baby is safe and protected. You deserve support right now.