I am a nurse and I lost my job and I am pregnant. And now, I can’t find a suitable job elsewhere

2 days after finding out I was pregnant, which I was ecstatic at the news as me and my husband was trying for a year, I was told I had to change my job or quit. The news hit like a bomb to me, never would I have thought I had to make a decision so big after finding out I was pregnant. I had a limited time to think and even when I tried to change my job to another area, I was told I had to do shift work. But I couldn’t. My husband did 12 hour shifts at work leaving me the main care giver of our 3 year old daughter. In a few hours I had to make the decision to resign and look for work elsewhere. I tried to be strong and looked for jobs actively after that and being a nurse, it was easy to find a new job. But I was wrong… All I was met was discrimination on the highest level. What I thought was an industry that understood my plight made me quickly learn that no one wanted me base on my “situation”, although they used nicer terms on why they couldn’t hire me, it was the same reason I knew. I manage to land a part time job (which I hated) and was also put in another part time job in an admin position. Yet I also faced the same issues as before as the job I hated wanted all the perks of a full timer but none of the responsibilities of one. I’m still in my early trimester fighting nausea, aversion to food and just the the fatigue all while my husband is taking extra hours in another work to make extra for my maternity leave and future hospital bills but at the cost of not seeing him more often and me having to deal with a 3 year with no concept of mummy being “sick” or “very tired” Today was my breaking point, while my daughter shoved her hands and splattered her bowl or soup around her table and was taking lunch seriously and proceeded to jump on our bed dirty, I yelled at her only for my husband to shout at me what was wrong with me… I was done with all of it…. Done with not having a proper job, done of people taking advantage of me and I can’t do anything about it, having my husband not be around more as I need him more now, having him spoil our daughter because he does not see her a lot, having my daughter jump all over me and having to look after her and take it, having no control over my own body to stop the giddiness I constantly have, looking at food and immediately thinking I want to puke and having so little support in all of it. My pregnancy which was suppose to be a blessing made me feel it is a curse and I want to get rid of my child now while it is not too late. I sound awful and I feel awful but now I just can’t go on like this anymore. I at my lowest and I don’t know what to do…