Pregnancy Loss

This 2020 breaks my heart really hard. I had 2 miscarriages on this same year. The first one is chemical pregnancy where in may fertilized egg but it do not hold onto the uterus kaya nalaglag. It was last April. And the recent one, happened last November 26. Just 3 days before my birthday. Nagstop na siya nagdevelop at 7weeks and 4days. Wala na ding heartbeat. Ang hirap pala ng ganito. Half day of my birthday nasa church ako, praying while crying. Asking so many questions but I still surrender it all to God. I never imagine na mararanasan ko 'to. Nakakatrauma po tuloy magbuntis ulit. Kaya last check up ko, tinanong ako ng OB ko if kelan ko ulit plano magbuntis, sabi ko wala po muna akong planong sundan. Nalungkot kami pareho as I said that, since 10 years ko na siyang OB (since highschool when I first discovered that I have PCOS) kaya parang Tita na turing ko sakanya. But still, she encourage me to heal first physically and more on psychologically then try again. Nakakaiyak lang kasi 8months na dapat ako today sa first pregnancy ko. Gustong-gusto na namin magkababy ni Hubby pero natatakot ako na baka mawala lang ulit. 😭😭😭#advicepls #theasianparentph #misscarriage