Ate, this is NOT about forgiving anymore, this is about your baby's safety and yours. What happened in that car could have ended very differently, at kasama ninyo ang iyong 1-year-old. That's not just anger; that's putting your family in real danger, and you're right to feel scared.
A few of us mums have been through similar situations, and honestly, protecting him from what people think while you're losing your peace? That's not love, that's survival mode. The pattern you're describing, anger he can't control, it happening for years, and now it's escalating, these are real red flags na kailangan ng professional help, hindi lang family talks.
Please reach out to a counselor, social worker, or even call a hotline like the DRRM or local barangay services, they can guide you confidentially on what steps to take. Your parents or siblings need to know, because you shouldn't carry this alone, and your baby needs a safe environment. You deserve support, not just "aayos, aayos pa rin namin."
This isn't about leaving or staying, it's about getting clarity and protection now. You're a good mom for being scared; that's your instinct protecting your child. Please listen to it.