i am a first time mum too and totally understand how you feel. the anxiety really got to me in my first trimester and i was crying, upset and just felt so afraid of every little thing i did. im at 23 weeks now, though it’s gotten better with each day the anxiety still gets me sometimes. what has helped me is to be open in talking about it to family and close friends, especially those who have been through pregnancy before. it’s really hard, and it’s okay! i’ve realised that we all experience this differently and sometimes just got to trust our body to carry us through. hope this gives you some comfort, it also comforts me to be able to be able to share!
Anxiety is perfectly normal, especially for a first time mum. I went through it, I still had anxieties when I had my second kid, and now even when the second one is 2yo, I still have my worries from time to time. I think the best thing you can do is not be so hard on yourself:) allow yourself to worry from time to time. But remember, many of these worries CAN actually be addressed. So when you are anxious about something, read up about it, or ask for help. Once you have a solution for a worry, then you can take these burdens off your shoulders one by one and enjoy the process of motherhood:)
When in doubt just ask and google. But no need to constantly be anxious as it won’t do you any good. Go out for walk, do yoga, have someone to talk to, listen to music for relaxation.