Oh sayang, I'm so sorry you're going through this. Memang sangat hard, especially after all the hoping and the bleeding scare. Please go to your admission tomorrow, the doctors will take good care of you and explain everything step by step, okay? A few of us mum friends have been through D&C, and what they all say is: yes ada discomfort, tapi you're under sedation so you won't remember much, and the pain after is manageable with the meds they give. Doctors handle it professionally, and you'll recover. This is NOT your fault, please be kind to yourself during this time. Sending you strength.