Anak, ang dami mong pinagsama, that's a lot on your shoulders, and it's okay na ang sakit mo talaga dahil that situation was unfair sa'yo. Pero nakikita ko na talagang mahal mo ang anak mo at ginagawa mo lahat para sa kanya, which is everything, yung presence mo, yung effort, yan na ang best gift kahit simple lang ang birthday. For your mental health though, please consider talking to someone, maybe through a free counseling hotline o community health center, kasi ang depression at separation anxiety mo ay deserve ng support, hindi lang iyong sisimutin lang; you can't pour from an empty cup, at your son needs his mama happy din. The mom guilt is real, but celebrate what you are giving him, the time you have, the love na walang hangganan, and honestly, kids remember the joy ng bonding na simple lang, hindi kung gaano kalaki ang celebration. Kaya mo yan, but please take care of yourself din, okay?