A mother's confession for choosing to abort or not (take time to read)

T'was a hell decision i made, i want my child to feel the love and to see the wonderful world but my bf doesnt want to, i love him but i love my baby more than my life, but there are some instances and circumstances that cannot do some progress. So i chose to abort my child but when that time comes i will pray for him/her everyday telling him/her how much i love him/her, i know there is a lot of moms here to shout at me, scolding me, telling bad words throwing in me, a lot of judgements coming through, families and neighbours who are very furious and judgement all the way in, asking for god's guidance and wisdom to conquer this obstacles and struggles, i know that God will understand my reason and God knows how much i love my baby, i will pray for you always and taking care of you here in my tummy is the best experience i've ever had, you are wonderful and very strong baby, i loveyou always, praying is the best key for forgiveness. Please forgive me for i have sin, i will always remember you my eldest baby, you are my panganay ehh, even if i dont know your gender i feel you are girl so i will name you angel because you will remain in my heart and in my mind, iloveyou my beautiful angel coming from above, my love for you is unconditional if i had a time travel i will switch my life into a wonderful family and a wonderful world that no one will judge you, us, bcoz being s teenage mom w/o a parents guidance is a hard choice, i will miss you baby ko, my angel, my princess. Iloveyou.