Sis, I hear your heart and I'm genuinely worried about what you're feeling right now, please talk to your OB or go to a health center soon, okay? Ang thoughts na yan about not wanting to be here deserve proper support, hindi lang Facebook posts. You're carrying so much, your baby, your fears, maybe even some pregnancy hormones mixing it all up. Mahal mo talaga ang pamilya mo, and that love is real, pero this heaviness you're carrying shouldn't have to be alone. Pls reach out to your doctor, or if you need someone to talk to right now, may hotlines like the PRC (1393) or Hopeline (02-8804-4673), trained people who just listen, walang judgment. You deserve to feel okay again, and you can.