Anak, ang dami mong napagdaanan na sobrang taas ng level, and ngayon na buntis ka ulit, totally valid na bumalik lahat ng fears at sakit na yun.
First, please makipag-usap sa OB mo ngayon pa lang about what happened at your trauma, especially since you're pregnant. Kailangan mo ng support na medically aware, hindi ka dapat mag-deliver with all this fear alone.
A few of us mums have had rough experiences sa hospitals too, and honestly, getting proper help, counseling, maybe a doula, or switching to a hospital/clinic na may better values, binago namin lahat. You deserve care na may puso, at may right ka mag-demand ng better treatment this time around. This trauma is real, and it's not something you process alone.
Kaya mo yan, mama.