Ay mama, totally gets it, dami namin dito na naramdaman yan, especially pag galing ka sa pagiging breadwinner tapos biglang shift talaga. Hindi ka nag-iisa sa pagiging torn between wanting to work at gusto mong makita ang growth ng baby mo every day, kaya valid ang feelings mo talaga. Pero isa lang maisip mo: ang pagiging present para sa 1-year-old mo at sa baby mo inside ay work din na, at sobrang importante yan, kaya give yourself credit muna doon, hindi ka deadweight sa partner mo. Siguro pwede ninyong pag-usapan together kung anong flexible options ang pwede para later on (like part-time or work from home), pero for now, take the pressure off yourself, financial contributions ay isang aspect lang ng partnership, at emotional labor mo sa kids at sa household ay equally valuable. Talk to your partner din honestly about how you're feeling kasi baka he doesn't realize you're struggling with this; maraming couples namin na na-improve talaga ang dynamics pag nag-open up about insecurities instead of just pushing through silently. You're doing great, honestly.