Sekadar cuba meluahkan perasaan since i have no siblings, i have no friends i can share this and my partner is not someone i can talk to about this. Pregnancy no 7, anak no5. Taktaw nk expect apa taktaw nk rasa apa. But all i can think of is i hate this feeling. Depression makin teruk, bila kita minta BTL for mental and physical health, jawapan doctor sama je. Awak muda lg, awk pregnant pun takda masalah, sy tak benarkan. Bukan tak merancang, amik depo, condom, buang luar semua dah. But Allah kata nk bg jugak rezeki. But to me dah jd beban. Amik depo, mental health teruk sgt2 almost everyday emosi. Pil2 lain semua tak sesuai side effect tak boleh tahan. Functional depression is real, luar nampak okay boleh gelak boleh senyum, dlm sehancur2 nya. Partner buat hal, kita takda life, all at once and menghancurkan jiwa sendiri. Jgn ckp kesian kt baby, fikir la org ttc tu semua nak anak susah bagai. No, that's not helping at all. Mental health mental issues is not religious problem, its not something you can control. It can be trauma, chemical imbalance and physiological.