Aww I totally get it, memang sedih when baby tak nak direct latch, especially after you've tried so hard. A few of us mums with shorter nipples went through the same thing, and honestly some babies just need a bit more time to adjust; coba tahan nipple shield for a few weeks dulu while you keep offering direct latch in between, maybe when baby is sleepy or not too hungry yet so less frustrated. For the actual nipple pain or soreness from all the attempts, Mama's Choice Nipple Cream really helped, it's safe for breastfeeding and honestly my friends and I swear by it because it makes the whole process less painful, which honestly makes you more confident to try. But I think it's worth checking with a lactation consultant (bukan nurse biasa, the specialized ones) sebab they can assess if ada tongue tie or latch issue that's making it harder, bukan just about puting panjang or pendek. You're doing amazing, mama, don't be too hard on yourself!