Stresss ngan hidup

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Saye preg 28minggu 2 hari.. actly saye pernah datang penyakit anxiety and depression pade tahun lepas selame 2 tahun.. but ni datang balikk sebab saye kecewa ngan husb saye sebab selalu tonton anime.. xsalah nk tngk tapi ni selalu sngt.. saye bukan nk bukan aib, sekadar luahan.. saye dh bnyk kli pesan nnti ank keluar tkkn awk nk layan lagi anime??? Pastu barang2 baby semua saye belikan.. dia x beli ape lasung pdhl ank dia jugakk.. dia just bagi duit bulanan saye je.. jdi saye beli pakai duit tu lh.. walaupun sikit sampai saya tak beli ape untuk saye bju preggy ke skincare saye.. 🙃Pastu dia ni mudah marah dikatakan baran lah senang citer.. dia pernah maki saye depan mak dia.. mak dia buat tak tahu jer.. pastu marah2 saye kalau saye x pegi rumah mak dia.. masalahnye kalau saye duduk rumah mak dia saye yg kene masak sebab mak dia mmng mls msak tk tahu lah kenapa selalu ayah dia jer masak malam klau balik kje lepas maghrib tuu..Lepastu pernah jugak dia marah saye depan adik beradik saye, macam saye jer salah dia x pun.. saye malu bile dia buat mcm tu depan sibling saye.. yelah sibling saye x pernah gaduh depan kami.. tpi kami pulakk jdi camtu.. saye jadi sedih sngt2. Sepanjang preggy saya banyak nngis.. seolah olah saye dh tk bhagia.. 🙃Saye sekarang ni asyik nngis sorang2 x henti2 sampai kan rase nk mati jer lepas bersalin nnti, nk tikam diri lah, nk cerai lah ape lah semua tuh dh maen dalam kepale dh..  sampai tahap saye ni silap terima lelaki.. 🙂#firstmom #firstbaby #sekadarluahan

Soraya Rayboot · Answer

Sayang, Im hearing a lot of pain in this, dan dengan history anxiety and depression mu, plus the stress sekarang, ini serious. Please reach out to your doctor or call a helpline ASAP, okay? Especially sebab fikiran tu dah masuk dark places (thoughts of harming yourself after birth), thats not just stress, that needs professional help right away. A few of my mum friends went through similar situations during pregnancy, and hormones + relationship strain + past mental health issues = a perfect storm. You deserve support, not just luahan on forum. Your feelings are valid, tapi you need someone trained to help you through this, whether its counselling, doctor, or even a trusted family member you can open up to properly. Your husband may not realise how serious this is for you. Sometimes when were struggling, our partners dont see it until its laid out clearly. But thats a conversation for when youre in a safer headspace, right now, please prioritise YOUR mental health, because you matter, and your baby needs you well. Dont carry this alone. Boleh text AWAM (your mental health hotline) or go to the nearest clinic, they wont judge, I promise.