Aduh, mama, that sounds so painful and traumatic Ten attempts is really a lot, and I can fully understand why you're feeling hesitant about having another baby, your feelings are completely valid, and there's no rush to decide anything right now. Maybe give yourself some time to process this experience and talk to your gynae about what happened, so you feel more confident if you ever do consider trying again. Sending you lots of strength, mama, you did so well bringing your little one into the world.