Aww mama, I can feel how overwhelmed you are right now and that's totally valid, two c-sections back-to-back is a lot on your body and mind, so this news hitting you like this makes complete sense. Take a breath first, okay, your feelings are real, but give yourself a few days before making any big decisions, and please talk to your doctor about all your options and what's safest for your body after two recent sections, because they can actually advise you best on timing and what might work for you. A few of us mums have been in similar shocked situations and honestly, after the initial panic wore off, things felt a bit clearer, so don't rush yourself into anything right now. You're not alone in this, and there's no shame in feeling every single emotion about it.