Hi mama,
I’m so sorry to hear that you’re going through this. Breastfeeding is already tough as it is without receiving discouraging remarks from family or loved ones but kudos to you for soldiering on.
I’m here to affirm that you’re gut instincts and knowledge of breastfeeding are spot on! As long as baby is gaining weight well and wetting enough diapers, your baby is getting the milk she needs.
As for not feeling ‘full’ at the breast anymore compared to earlier postpartum days, this is normal as your body would have better regulated the amount of milk for baby. Feeling empty is by no means a sign that you’re not producing enough milk.
At 4 months, baby could be going through a growth spurt. Most parents find that their LOs get fussy during these phases. They also cluster feed or feed for short durations but more times in a day and feeding intervals are closer together. The phase usually lasts for a few days to about a week or so. Don’t worry, it’ll soon pass.
The pump is never a good indicator of the amount of milk you have in the breast as your baby is far more efficient at emptying your breast. Also, because you don’t pump often, your breasts may not be as seasoned to your breast pump as you’d like.
Mama, we’re all rooting for you. Don’t let this get you down. You’re providing the best nature has to offer. If you could talk to someone or even hubby to keep encouraging or supporting you - even send you affirmations every now and then, it might help.
Take care and my heart goes out to you.