Mommy, I hear you, two babies under 4 is a lot, and the jump from working (even part-time) to full-time mothering is real and brutal, hindi lang basta tired lang talaga. A few of us moms went through the same thing, and honestly, what you're describing, the breakdown, the body aches, the feeling na hindi sapat what your hubby does even when he's trying, sounds like postpartum exhaustion and maybe burnout na, kaya I'd really gently suggest talking to your OB or doctor about how you're feeling, especially since you're crying a lot and your whole body hurts. The mental load of managing everything (babies + chores + the standards you have in your head) while your hubby helps but doesn't fully own it the way you do, yan talaga ang nakakapagod, you lost your work-self and now you're drowning in motherhood 24/7 with no break. Pagsawa mo muna ng pag-expect sa sarili mo right now, because with an 8-month-old and a 3-year-old, "maayos" doesn't look the same anymore, and that's okay.