Aww sabar ye sis, pengalaman episiotomy yang kelam tu memang boleh tinggal trauma sikit-sikit, especially kalau ada complications macam kena jahit twice! It's actually quite normal to feel nervous duduk and ada slight discomfort around that area even months later, both the physical healing dan mental side of it. Best thing is to bring this up with your gynae or even a pelvic floor physiotherapist, sebab dekat Malaysia ada specialists yang boleh assess if it's purely psychological or ada physical tissue tightness yang perlu disenang, dia boleh guide you through gentle exercises or relaxation techniques. Jangan feeling alone dalam ni, banyak moms ada similar feelings, dan the good news is it usually improves with time, professional support, and maybe some reassurance touch-and-check. Kuat ye, you've got this!