Thinking about the future…

Hi Mommies. I just want to share what’s been bothering me for weeks now.. Idk if signs of PPD but I feel overwhelmed minsan 😭 Si hubby kasi has an offer to work in the US and bring us with him.. it was opened up last 2020 pa when we got married pero due to pandemic, nadelay nang nadelay. Last year he was supposed to fly kaso mga 3mos after pa kami makakasunod kaya ayaw nya talaga kasi kakapanganak ko lang and he wants to witness every single moment ni baby. In short, di natuloy. US is not actually in our hearts and minds kasi okay na rin kami rito. We have our own house and car. Pero idk why lately, parang nasa puso ko na to try living there.. it’s as if I want to escape, I want to breathe, I want a different environment. Apart from the opportunities it could give our child(ren). Kaso hubby is decided na that we stay here. Kasi nga stable naman kami rito. I fully understand him and trust his decision pero bakit may kirot sa heart ko 😭