Usaha bf gagal. Pump tapi asyik melecet

Hi mommies. I ada 6-month old daughter yg skrg ni mmg depends on formula sbb my breastmilk sangat2 sikit. Mmg tak cukup utk follow demand baby. Everytime pump areola mmg akan melecet sbb kulit jenis senang terluka. Boleh kata kulit nipis. Even time labour (svd) pun nurse mention sbb I had tearing 😢. Lagi satu, one of my breast is nipple inverted so everytime pump mmg akan melecet. I dah letak nipple cream bepanthen and ada juga pakai PawPaw ointment tp tak membantu sangat sbb bila pumping akan buat melecet semula. I pernah rasa nak giveup sbb sakit melecet tu pernah buat I demam. Time ni dgn nipple2 sekali hampir bernanah and i need to stop direct for about 3 months. I marmet je tp still susu tak banyak. After 3 months i started working and tried many times to pump ikut schedule. Tp tu la i kata. Mmg akan melecet 😭. Size flange pun dah follow but still no hope. I stress sangat2 sbb sedih tak dpt bagi baby my breastmilk. She is my first child 😭 i ada minta tolong husband juga but he’s also busy and boleh tolong mana yg mampu je. And now dah masa utk baby start solid food so i target utk increasekan balik my breastmilk. Pls i really need help how to overcome this. I ada plan nak visit lactation counsellor but dont know how to find them. Kalau ada mommies yg tahu atau berpengalaman, pls reply 🙇🏻‍♀️🙇🏻‍♀️😭 #bantujawab #firstmom #breasfeeding #formula