I’m not excited. Is this normal?

Hi, mommies. First-time mom ako. I feel like a bad mom for not even feeling excited or happy that I’m expecting. Parang, come what may na lang nafefeel ko. Kung makunan, edi makunan (but please don’t get me wrong, I’m not trying to naman and certainly not wishing). Kung hindi, edi the baby’s here. Ewan ko, ang hirap. Now I’m also scared na baka pagkalabas niya, hindi ko siya kayang mahalin. Is it just me? Is this just a phase? Will I get over it eventually? #firsttimemom #plshelp #pregnancy #sharing #adviceappreciated #firstmom