Aw, momie, I'm so, so sorry to hear this. Please lean on your doctor's guidance right now, they know your case best, and it's important you follow up with them closely on what happens next, okay? A few of us moms have been through this kind of heartbreak, and it's real grief, your feelings are completely valid, and you don't have to be strong right now. Rest, let yourself feel it, and please don't go through this alone, tell your partner, your mom, or a close friend. Your body and heart need care. Sending you the biggest hugs, ate. You're not alone in this.