Anak, I'm so, so sorry, my heart breaks for you. Please see your doctor or go to the hospital right away if you haven't yet, okay? They need to check that everything is healing properly, and they can also help with what you're feeling right now. Physically and emotionally, you need proper care, hindi mo kailangang harapin ito mag-isa. A few of us moms have been through this, at nagsabi sila how important it was to have their doctor guide them, at may support din from family. Reach out to someone you trust, whether it's your partner, your mom, or a close friend, let them help you through this. Praying for your healing, love. You're stronger than you know.