Ay, nak, I'm so sorry you went through that. Please make sure you've seen a doctor to check na okay ka na physically, that's really important. Moving forward emotionally is different for everyone, and there's no rush. A few of us mums have found it helpful to step back from apps and groups for a bit if they're bringing up painful memories, and that's totally okay. Your healing comes first, always. Take care of yourself, and don't hesitate to lean on people around you or talk to someone if you need to. Sending you strength.