Trust issue

Mga momsh, I just need to share this and I'll accept whatever na maging comment nyo about dito. I'm a single mom to my twin daughters and now on my 22nd week of pregnancy sa first baby nmen ng new partner ko. And honestly, kaya kong aminin na siguro nga may trust issue ako. Before maging kame ng partner ko, sobrang dami nya'ng babae. Bata, same age at mas mtanda kht skn.. almost same age na din sa tito nya. At sa unang buwan ng relasyon namin, nandon yun pagkktaon na un ilan s mga bbae na un, kinokontak pdn sya and kht ksama nya q, tntwagan pdn cia. At sya nman, cnsagot nya and telling me na wla naman na dw un. My closure n dw. My time din na ilan bses na syang nag lie skn about s true relationship nya s ilan s mga bbaeng nakikita q s messenger nya. Then etong isa, he told me that it was his bff for 10yrs. Never dw cla nglandian or something like that non girl. Isng bses, same month that I'm still suffering with my anxiety and sobrang worried aq s baby s tyan q dahil dinugo aq, i found out na nkpagchat sya don s girl, then don q nahuli n ngcnungaling sya skn s una nya cnabi. And aaminin q until now di aq mkaget over dhl my mga chances na some of his lies e nhuhuli ko pdn. Tpos di pa aq nkkaget over don, naulit na naman kgabe while I'm asleep. Ngcng aq n nkkpg chat cia don s bbae.. and kng dko pa cia tnitigan ng msama, di nia ssbhn skn n kchat nia un bbae and kesyo dw depressed dw un bbae. It feels so unfair skn kc pg aq ung nagssbe about s nging depression q, ssbihin nya skn na klokohan q lng dw un pro s ibng bbae..ganon na lang🥺 nssaktan ako kc aq tong inaatake ng anxiety ko pro pilit kong nilalakasan loob ko kasi ayoko maapektuhan yun baby s tyan q, pro sya.. nggawa pa nya un gnon at ssbhan pa aq na toxic dw aq at aq ang sisira s relationship namen😭 Sobrang toxic q na nga ba talaga.? #advicepls #pleasehelp