Aw mama, yan talaga ang mahirap, pakiramdam ko yan kasi dumaan din ako ng ganyan with my first, at grabe talaga ang guilt kahit alam mo namang gawa lang ng circumstances. Since nagsuka siya ng matagal, check with your pedia kung may after-effects pa, like reflux or something, kasi sometimes yan ang reason why they develop that need to be held during sleep, it's a comfort thing after being sick. What a few of us tried is slowly reintroducing yourself during nap time when she's already calm, like mag-start ka ng routine without it being the MIL, pero walang pressure; if she cries, MIL can take over but you're still there, para nakikita niya na ikaw rin pwedeng safe. Honestly mama, at 30 weeks pregnant na rin, be kind to yourself, you can't physically do what you did before, at alam ng babies yan, kaya magbabago lang talaga ang dynamic for now. Once baby comes, things will shift again anyway, kaya don't lose hope na mag-reattach rin kayo eventually. Hugs, ang buhay ng mommy talaga complicated pero makakayanan natin!