Uy mama, I feel you so much, ang heavy talaga ng ganyan, lalo na pag EBF pa ang baby mo. Honestly, a few of us working moms in my circle have similar setups (traveling, overnights), at the first few months talaga ang pinakamahirap emotionally, but it does get easier once baby adjusts and you find your rhythm with expressing milk and a trusted caregiver. The guilt is real and valid, pero remember na providing for your family IS also showing love, you're not choosing work over baby, you're choosing to keep your family stable, and baby will understand that someday. Kaya mo yan, mama, but please talk to your OB or a therapist din about these feelings kasi the postpartum emotions are legit, and you deserve support through this transition. Rooting for you