Aw mama, yan talaga ang pinakamahirap na part ng transition back to work, lalo na pag EBF! A few of us from my circle went through the same thing, at honestly, ang key ay gradual lang talaga, try leaving baby with your trusted caregiver for short periods muna (even just 30 mins to an hour) habang nandito ka pa, para both of you ma-adjust sa separation slowly. The crying will happen, I won't lie, pero after a few weeks kasi napapansin mo na ang baby gets used to the routine, and the caregiver finds their own ways to soothe (may mums na swear by certain routines or activities, basta consistent lang). Prep din your partner or caregiver ng expressed milk so baby doesn't feel completely lost, at remind yourself na ang tears ay normal part ng adjustment, hindi mo siyang ninakawan, ikaw ay nag-wowork para sa pamilya. The urge to rush home will be strong those first weeks, I totally get it, pero kailangan mo rin ma-realize na your baby will be okay, at you deserve to be okay din sa work. Kaya mo yan, mama!