missed pills

Hello mga fellow moms who are currently on a pill. Ask ko lang po sana, pwede pa kaya ako mag mini pill? Kasi I've already missed 10pills na. I don't know, a part of me wants to get pregnant. And also a part of me that i don't want to. Maybe because of my chronic depression and BPD :'( is there any chance that I could get pregnant na ba ? Or i can still take an emergency pill pa? Thank you po sa mga sasagot. Positive comments are appreciated.