FTM Worries

I'm a FTM to my baby boy who was born on January 3rd. Grabe ang hirap pala talagang maging ina. Ang dami-dami mong iniisip at worries. Currently, for me, I'm usually worried na baka nao-overfeed ko si baby. I do mixed feeding sa kanya kasi kulang milk supply ko. Tinitimplahan ko sya ng formula if I feel na hindi pa sya nabusog sa breastmilk ko. But still, di ko pa rin matantsa kung busog na ba sya or what. Tapos ito namang pagpapa-burp. Hay naku hirap ah. Dalawa kami ng asawa ko nagtutulungan kapag pinapa-burp si baby kasi usually bigla nya inaangat ulo nya. So dapat may assistance talaga to make sure may support yung head ni baby. Minsan naman I have anxieties na baka mabulunan si baby kapag nagbbottle feed kami, kaya ang ginagawa ko is pinapahinga sya sa pagfi-feed for a few seconds para he has time to swallow the milk. Maybe praning lang ako pero who can blame me. This is my first time having a baby, and I've never taken care of a baby before. As in no time for me to get exposed to child rearing. Don't get me wrong po. I'm not complaining, I'm merely sharing with you my anxieties kasi baka may makarelate jan na mga FTM din. I love my baby so so much, and I want to be the best mother to him. I really do.