I'm currently in my 3rd trimester, and today has been a really tough day for me.
The scorching hot weather has been draining all my energy, and I feel like I'm stuck in a never-ending cycle of sadness. Despite feeling utterly exhausted, I pushed myself to pick up my 2yo daughter after work.
But the weight of my empty bank account and the pile of unpaid bills hanging over my head is suffocating me. Even though I have a helper and my husband's support, I can't shake off this heavy cloud of sadness that looms over me. I don't know if it's my raging hormones or the constant financial struggles that are pulling me down.
To make matters worse, payday feels like a distant dream, only coming around on the 20th of each month. And to add insult to injury, my part-time salary keeps getting delayed every single month. This is the first time in a long while that I'm unable to cover my insurance, and there's a real fear it might lapse this month. On top of all this, my husband seems to have been taken advantage of by a scammer bcos his rental car.
The reason we have a helper and my husband has a car is because my husband, who has mild autism, finds it hard to understand certain things, and it's exhausting for me to keep explaining. All these struggles have drained me of the motivation to eat healthily, and I can't help but feel guilty for not taking better care of my little one growing inside me. I'm finding it hard to muster the enthusiasm to do anything else; all I crave is the solace of the air-conditioned office, away from the overwhelming demands of being a mother and a wife. But even there, a recent complaint has left me feeling utterly defeated.
I'm desperately seeking guidance on how to turn things around and what foods can lift my spirits. Despite my overwhelming fatigue, the inability to fall asleep is driving me to the brink, making me feel like I'm losing my grip on reality.