Restless me

I am restless I wanna rest I feel exhausted I feel tired I feel drained I feel so dead inside I wanna close my eyes Maybe sleep a little while Wishing i wont ever wake up Where do i go To the bedroom I hate that place I cant go there That place screams anxiety It surrounds negative energy Like its drowning me I cant rest in the bedroom I cant lay in bed I cant see my husband sleeping so peacefully I hate going in there knowing the baby is in there too waiting for me to nurse her While the sorrow swallows me inch by inch I wish to just drop dead elsewhere I give up