How to be a good mom?

I need advice mga kapwa ko nanay. I feel like i failed as a mother big time. I don't know myself anymore. Parang nakukuha lng makinig ng anak ko pag nkkita na niang galit ako. Napaka igsi tlga ng pasensya q. At hindi ko kayang ihandle ang mga nangyari to the point na naiiyak ako nassktan ako. I have no one to turn to. I can't talk to my partner abt this because i feel like he doesn't know me very well. I feel like i have to explain it to him deeply. I feel like i'm talking to a total stranger. I know there's something wrong with me. I've read abt post partum depression and i think i am facing it right now. I just want to be a good mother but i failed, and its heartbreaking 💔💔💔 i need help 💔💔