Oh mama, I'm so deeply sorry you're going through this, what you're feeling is completely valid, and please know you're not alone in this pain. Your prayers and kind words for other mothers show such a beautiful heart, even in your hardest moment, and I'm sending all the strength and duas your way too. Take gentle care of yourself during this time, let people help you, and don't hesitate to reach out to your doctor or a counsellor if you need extra support, grieving this loss is important. Aminn, aminn ya Rabb, for you and your family.