i feel you sis. every meal i have to prick my fingers to check blood glucose level before and after + inject insulin to keep my bg down. initially the new routine & diet will put you off, but along the way you will take care of yourself better for you & your baby. btw, your placenta doesn't produce enough insulin due to hormonal changes. please don't blame yourself. you can do it. take one day at a time. some days will suck but you were given a gift from above to create lifeform in your little belly. you are more than just diabetes. you can do this. hugs