How to move on from your husband’s infidelity?

I found out last August that my husband is having an affair with his ex gf. I chose to forgive but I am still having panic attacks. Gustong gusto kong maka move on but everytime na feeling ko nagiging ok na ako e bigla nalang akong nag bbreakdown. Nag ooverthink nanaman ako. Para akong mababaliw kakaisip. I’m still having anxiety attacks. Para sa mga kagaya kong naka experience na nito, anong ginawa niyo? Pinili kong mag stay at ayusin yung pamilya namin kaya ayoko sana na ganito ako. Alam ko naman at ramdam kong ginagawa ng husband ko ang lahat para patunayang aayusin niya din pero di ko mapigilan yung pag ooverthink ko. Will this ever end? I feel hopeless. P.S: Please don’t judge my choice.