my hubby's not so "other girl"

Disclaimer: long post ahead I had this experience with my hubby, super close sya sa mga girls n kawork nya (homebased sila) at may groupchat din, mayat maya vid call din pero decline nya nmn pg kasama ako, tsismisan, kulitan lang ganun. Ngmeet up sila twice to help this one girl na may prob sa asawa nya (eventually iniwan ng hubby), little did i know tong asawa ko todo support n pla kay gurl kc naging suicidal, naisip ng hubby ko 2kids ni gurl kya lagi nya comfort..until such time he crossed the boundaries, take note bagong panganak ako nangyari to. Lagi n pla sila mgkachat privately at gumawa p dummy accnt asawa ko for her kc nga of all, ngseselos ako sa knya, instinct ba. So he created a dummy accnt at si gurl lang andun, and the way he console the girl is to "pretend" they are on relationship, to show the girl she is deserving to be loved. I found out nung one time umalis asawa ko and hindi umuwi kesyo mgCheck in nlang daw sya kc napagod mgDrive sa sobra trapik. When i opened his cp paguwi kinabukasan, i accidentally opened Chrome and saw that chat with "Love"..dun ko nakita n mgkasama pla sila at super sweet ng convo nila. My whole world crushed coz in 13yrs he never cheated on me, I never doubted him considering kakapanganak ko plang a month ago at homebased siya, meaning di lumalabas..first time i hit him, i punched him many times while shouting, while angry, while hurt, while crying.. We fought several more times and even now, after a month I haven't moved on yet, though I'm really trying.. He admitted, ofcourse, I already caught them pero wala daw tlga sila relasyon and he just wanted to console the girl but admitted he crossed the line, even the girl. She was on denial at first but admitted and said her sorry. They stopped talking or chatting even while at work but not enough for me to fully moved on, maybe bcoz I'm still staying at home, maternity leave, wala ako pinagkakaabalahan..kaya madalas pa din sya pumasok sa utak ko at maiyak nlang. It was so painful that it has to happen when I just given birth. I will never forget what I told him "Walang kayo pero ang sweet ng mga message mo sa knya, diba dapat sakin lang un kasi ako ang asawa mo?! Nung nanganak ako my dedication message or post kba sakin, for bearing all the pain during labor, diba wala?! Tapos ibang babae cocomfort mo pero sarili mong asawa di mo masabihan ng mga ganun?!" I admit, I had shortcomings and temper but still, I'm responsible wife and mother trying to give them what I can and never did I think of cheating him despite his shortcomings as well. I have no other choice but to forgive him because he is my husband, bcoz he is the father of my kids, because we are a family...even if it breaks my heart that another girl almost got my husband, to worst, to a wife who also got cheated and dumped..