I’m delivering my second baby in days, and I’ve accepted my marriage is over. I just need to vent
I think I’ve finally hit the wall. I am scheduled for my C-section this month, and I’ve come to terms with the fact that my marriage is completely dead. I just need to get this out because his excuses and gaslighting are driving me insane. For context, here is the timeline of the absolute hell I’ve been living in: Mar 2020: We got married. Apr 2021: He asked to abort our first child. Says we're not financially ready. Nov 2021: We held our actual wedding. Mar 2024: Welcomed our first daughter. Sep 2025: We had discussions about separating. His immediate response was to book an escort. Oct – Dec 2025: He actually started dating this escort and turned her into his girlfriend before they broke up in December. Jan 2026: We started marriage counseling. I genuinely thought we were working on us. Feb 2026: I went away on a business trip. He immediately booked that same escort again. Mar 2026: Still in counseling. He looked me in the eye and promised he was going to change. Apr 2026: We found out I was pregnant with our second child. That same month, he booked that escort to go on a 3D2N "business trip" with him. May 2026: We were on a couples holiday together in Vegas. While on this trip, I found out he had texted her about booking her for EDC Thailand in December 2026—which would be right after my delivery. Jun 2026: He told me he was going to a "colleague's farewell." In reality, he booked her for a Michelin-star meal at our go-to special occasion restaurant. I only found out because he got into an accident. I found her Telegram (since I knew who she was outside of her escort facade) and told her to back off. She blocked him. Sep 2026: I stupidly thought the dust had settled. Then I realized he had been searching for her online every single day because he was blocked. When I confronted him, the floodgates opened: he admitted he’s been booking escorts since before we even met, and consistently since our second year of marriage. His excuse? He has a "high sex drive," he "loves me and our family," it’s "just to scratch an itch," and tried to gaslight me by saying "more people do this than you think." Oct 2026: Found out he’s right back to booking other escorts. Nov 2026: My C-section is booked for this month. For the longest time, I told myself I was holding on and enduring this for the sake of my firstborn. I come from a broken family. I know exactly what it’s like to grow up without a dad, and I was terrified of doing that to her. But now the blinders are off. I know I need to leave for my two girls. If I stay, what exactly am I teaching them? That it’s okay to stay with a lying husband who has zero respect for me, zero respect for our family, and thinks serial betrayal is just a normal biological need? I am exhausted, I am heavily pregnant, but I am finally done. Thanks for letting me get this out. #secondtimemum
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