Postpartum depression after 1 yr of giving birth

Question

My LO is turning 1 this Feb. Currently experiencing symptoms of ppd, excessive crying that I can’t control, can’t stop thinking about random things and it makes me anxious. Wfh ako and I’m thankful for that, but as I work, I also take care of my LO at the same time, na exclusive bf and ayaw mag bote kahit pilitin ko, and that’s what makes it challenging. Clingy sya and kami lang madalas dalawa sa bahay since my husband is working on-site. I’m just thinking why kaya ngayon lumabas tong mga nararamdaman ko kung kailan pa-1yr na si LO, isn’t it late? or this is not ppd at all? Am I just overwhelmed? I need someone to talk to, I’m confused with my emotions. I’m thinking din na mag resign na sa work, but that thought also makes me anxious. Di naman kami naghihirap, pero marami kami pangarap ni hubby, what if I delayed it? or kaya ba talaga namin na isa lang ang kumikita with the high inflation rate these days? Hay.

Maria Reyes Garcia · Answer

Mama, its not too late for PPD at all, a lot of us experience delayed symptoms or they can come in waves, especially when stress builds up like yours (WFH + exclusive bf + clingy baby + solo parenting most days is a lot ), kaya please dont dismiss what youre feeling. The anxiety about work, the uncontrollable crying, the racing thoughts, those are real and worth talking to your OB or a therapist about, hindi ka nag-iisa dito. One of my mum friends had the same delayed PPD around 10 months in when she realized the constant pressure was catching up to her, and talking to a professional really helped her sort out what was postpartum and what was just burnout. About the resignation thing, thats such a heavy decision to make while youre feeling this way, so maybe focus on your mental health first with professional help, then decide with your husband from a clearer headspace? You deserve support, mama, whether thats therapy, more help at home, or just honest conversations with your partner about how overwhelmed you actually are. Please reach out to your doctor soon, okay?