i just wanted to tell my experience ??

Last aug. 5 2019 ko po nalaman na buntis ako at 21 weeks na po sya non kasi po never akong nakaranas ng morning sickness, paglilihi , pagkahilo etc po . I was diagnose and confined for 4 days sa hospital kasi akala lang po namin na nadengue ako, na may U.T.I ako etc pang laboratory ang pinagagawa sakin I also experience having a X-ray scan while im unconsious na buntis ako and during my unknown pregnancy( kasi Hindi po ako aware na buntis ako) I've done a lot of extreme activities like Undergoing a military training since Im a ROTC 2Nd class and everyday during our training We would ran for 3 miles plus Army dozen exercise which is not Good for the baby , Im stressed at that time because of lack of sleep because we sleep at 10pm and we woke up at 3 in the morning to prepare for our daily routine . When we came back to our respective units after our training I also undergo Rapel rescue, rescue swimming which is Holding your breath for 40 seconds and do some 12Ft dive after , before i knew i was pregnant The only thing that i notice to my body Im too easy to get tired which is Not so me . and just 1 week before I recieved that shocking news I felt like theres something telling me to drink some milk , eat some foods I dont like , eat some food that is not good for my body because we need to be physically fit po kasi and also nakasanayan ko na po na intact talaga ung tummy ko . d naman akong totally skinny i also have fats but My tummy is flat . So when i heared the news coming from the guy na nag ultrasound sakin kasi isa yan sa laboratory na pinapagawa sakin ni doc I was so shock to the point na hindi na ako naniniwala sa kanya kasi how come when it only happen once thats why i keep asking him if nagbibiro ba sya etc . and also sinabi ko din about my experiences for the past months pero sabi nya hindi daw sya nagbibiro He didnt even bother to congratulate me like in the movies so i cant really tell if seryoso ba sya or hindi but during that moment theres only one thing in my mind and that is I cant have this child, Its too early ,im in the peak of my career im becoming a P.A . I texted my Besty and told her the news and the next is My nurse sister we were crying and crying and i told my sister to prevent the doctors/ nurses to tell that news to my family , like to keep it secret and I will abort my baby but both of them dont agreed to my plan , I know Im so cruel to think that way , but My mind is black that i cant even think straight but later on. i was hit by my bestfriend words And it was " Hindi mo gustong makita na may pinapatay na baby at kung saan2 lang tinatapon pero ikaw mismo gagawa nyan sa anak mo . It cleared my mind so i could my Boyfriend which is both of out family doesnt know our relationship exist and told him about everything and He said that he will face my family and he did , and of course alam nyo na ang kasunod non disappointment, broken trust etc. And we willingly accept it because we know we committed a Sin to our family and fortunately our family accept pur situation but i know not all of them thats why we would prove to them that it is not the end for us but it is just the beginning for another journey . kaya for all the mommies like me jan especially sa mga first timer . Accept and embrace what you have , maswerte nga kayo dahil ang bilis nyong nalaman na buntis kayo , but for me Im a little bit sad kasi di ko man lang naranasan ang naranasan ng ibang normal na pagbubuntis and I wanted to have a little extension with the bby inside me because its too late when i know it exist . so love your child and Nurture them po .. and please pray for me and my baby for my Conginetal scan this Sept 25 ?? .. Thank u po?