PATIENCE!!!

Am i a bad mom if iwan ko ang baby ko umiiyak? I don't know what to do w/ her. Hirap pakainin and padedehin. And awhile ago di ko na kinaya. Iniwan ko sya sa bed namin (w/ fence and wall protector) kasi naubos na talaga pasensya ko. Baka ano magawa ko. I just lay down in the other room, watching her through CCTV. She's our first baby,turning 1 in 9 days, and first time nasagad pasensya ko. Feeling ko i'm a terrible mom.